Still Here

Great Pretender Lilith as the spirit of Ren
and Style Mantra Eden as goddess Hera
(Eden is such a queenly goddess; I had to use her attributes.
Ren is a made up character.  I pictured her with
silver eyes.  The beauty of photoshop!) 

I admit my days of blogging has been rare and far in between.  The year 2014 was a pretty crappy and hectic time.  It was a year I totally could have done without.  Being emotionally and physically weary is a horrible combo.  And it seems it ain't over yet.

Many many times, I'd actually thought about giving up on the doll blog.  I was collecting dolls but I was barely playing with them or even looking at them.  That was not the kind of collector I am.  I like to fuss over my dolls, photograph them, give them names, such and such.  But I was totally uninspired.  Work life was taking big bites out of me and it was driving me nuts.  I'm sure I'm not the only one who ever felt that way.  I think I was hanging by a thread taking comfort in that.  Right now I feel like I'm still in the eye of the storm, where things are calm but the world can come crashing on you at any moment.  Funny that at the end of it all I come right back here....

I like to write stories.  Have so since my teenage years.  In truth, I suck at it, big time, and I'm not just being humble when I say that.  I was rereading some of my old stuff the other week and it was one of those what the hell moments.  Some of them just didn't make much sense.  Thank goodness I was the only one reading them!  So I figured, what the hell!  I will write a story to keep my mind occupied and my soul less stressed.  It has been many many years since I've had an idea.  I really wanted an idea.  I must have sat still for ages before I even came up with one.  The irony?  I found myself walking into the doll room.  If I was going to have a story, I was going to need characters.  The aha moment!

Irresistible in India Poppy Parker as goddess Hathor
(I wanted a character that was shimmery antique gold in color
through and through, from hair to skin and eyes, even attire,
but I'm not sure I could dip any of my babies in gold paint,
nor do I have the skills to make the dress I have in my head.
 So I settled for this redressed Poppy doll.
I love this skin tone on her.
She comes really close to what I had in mind.)

Mythology has always intrigued me.  I love reading stories about gods and goddesses.  It's super fascinating how we humans made sense of our world without modern technology.  The pictures you are seeing are inspired by them.

In the end, I didn't just come up with an idea for a story, I came up with pretty kickass pics too.  I guess there was a reason I didn't stop blogging.  There's a reason I'm still doll collecting.  I was going to come right back here sharing my doll tales of frustration and inspiration.


Happy Thursday!